No Simple Answers

A woman's tale is full of sadness. Maybe because we like to replay events and words in our minds. We do think too much sometimes, that it doesn't allow us to be happy.

This is Jane's Story:

My daughter questions my decision to stay with a cheating husband. I question myself too. On good days I think my husband still loves me and the woman is only a distraction. On bad days I told myself to stop being a fool and wake up to his years of betrayal.

I did fight once upon a time. Back then I still have a lot of hope for my marriage. I hope that my husband would turn back and see us, his family, again. I hoped that the other woman would bow out. I hoped foolishly for years. I believed that my husband love us and I still love him. He never neglected his duties and he never stayed a night out. I believe that his heart is still at home.

Why then did he not leave her? I have no answers for that. Perhaps he loved her too. Bit by bit, I learned to ignore her existence. I refused to acknowledge her.

Would I do things differently now? Perhaps.. but only for the sake of my daughter. I see the hurt in her, which I blinded myself to for many years as I couldn't live with both her hurt and mine.

Perhaps, if I had been brave enough to leave, my daughter would be happier.
So why did I stay? I have no answers for you.. because I don't know.